Monday, November 17, 2008
i wonder how am i going to achieve His redha when i'm not fully redha to all of His ketetapan???
haiz, dream on lah ju...hmm but i guess i will still dream on...at least is better than nothing.
wasted $$ on cab fares despite the tight budget coz i was feeling lembik and dun feel like being in super crowded trains. in the rush, i forgot to bring the Quran along for tonite's lesson. but instead my hand grabbed the small ruqyah booklet on the bedstand.
the amazing thing was as i sat in the cab feeling hopeless with myself, after finishing a packet of pokka green tea to sooth the throat, i manage to 'force' myself to take out the ruqyah booklet out of my handbag...and just as a i recited the Al-Fateha in my heart.... i felt a certain soothing coolness in the heart,...the 'burnout' feeling is now gone at the moment. Alhamdulillah.
at times i felt i don't deserve the kindness Allah showers on me...but i need Him..who else can i run to and who else understands me best except Him.
i dunno if i'll pull thru the tests of this world and die in His redha ...only Allah knows....and that is scary. super scary.
P.S. sidetrack - i read that the cleaner who was mauled to death by the tigers recently actually manage to utter the kalimah syahadah before his death.
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hv always loved this picture of Chichi. it was another side of her besides her usual mischevious self. the greatness of Allah's words, even an animal felt the effect. nowadays she loves to golek2 on the sejadah and refuse to budge off unless she is carried away. but most of the time she behaves herself and sits quietly on the dressingtable or the bed. hehehe
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