Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Anyway, its been more than a week now since dad's sudden change. yesterday Adik decided to go to the family doctor to seek advice. doctor said dad needs medical attention asap and he would need lifetime medication to keep his condition under control, otherwise he might soon reach a stage where he'll not be able to recognise his own family members. didn't know his condition was this serious... and since the medication would be very costly, doctor suggested that we bring him to the govt doctor and follow-up from there. And Mummy went to see the GP at cgh's a&e today coz she was not feeling well and got 2nd opinion abt dad's condition as well, he too emphasised that dad needs to be brought immediately to the hospital for blood tests and a brain scan...
the challenging part now is getting dad to see the doctor. yesterday husband tried to console him into seeing the doctor but he refused. he doesn't seem aware of the drastic changes happening to himself. We are still thinking of something to make him agree to see the doctor....insya Allah...if possible by tonite.
I'm feeling a little exhausted but otherwise fine...trying not to let the emotions get over me too... insya Allah..
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"Iaitu orang-orang yang apabila ditimpa musibah mereka mengucapkan: 'sesungguhnya kami adalah milik Allah dan kepadaNya lah kami kembali. Mereka itulah yang mendapat keberkatan yang sempurna dan rahmat dari Tuhannya, dan mereka ialah orang-orang yang mendapat petunjuk." (Al-Baqarah: 156-157)
"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ianya amat buruk bagimu. Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui terhadap sesuatu yang tidak kamu ketahui." (Al-Baqarah: 216)
"Hai orang orang yg beriman, mintalah pertolongan kepada Allah dengan sabar dan solat,sesunggguhnya Allah beserta orang orang yg sabar" (Al-Baqarah: 153)
2:05 PM
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Monday, August 25, 2008
8:07 PM
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Friday, August 22, 2008
Altho at first was bit kancheong being put in the opis having to cover duties which i've never done before....there's a blessing in disguise...and its not as bad as i imagined it to be...(still got time update blog somemore...nak complain hapa lagi??!) All thanks to Him mempermudahkan segalanya....
For now, i guess i'll just enjoy the peace and quiet here whilst stocks last...
P.s. dalam kesepian dipejabat, kedengaran pula seorg teman sepejabat sedang memutarkan lagu "when i fall in love, it will be forever..."....kakakah. sungguh romantica d amour...
11:40 AM
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Wednesday, August 20, 2008
gambar ini telah dipetik malam semalam... dalam banyak2 tempat yg ada, chapee gemar duduk beristerehat di atas handbeg kerja ku ini, sehingga ia semakin penyek dan out of shape..mungkinkah ada bau ashem ku terlekat di beg tersebut? muehehehe
Zzzzzzz...sweet dreams....
2:38 PM
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Every day and nite
Cocooned in Your love and care
Immersed in Your Greatness
till nothing else matters
Let me hide in You oh Master
From worldly traps that drifts me away from You
From all that comes in my way
When i want to get closer to You
Let my fear be only towards You and just You
Nothing could be that bad when i have You
Nothing should be that scary
When i have the All-Powerful to flee unto
Afterall You test me not beyond what i can bear
Let this heart be tied to You oh Master
Purify me ya Tawwab..
Let me surrender fully to You
Till then patiently wait I will
for the beautiful moment to arrive
Insya Allah...
2:05 PM
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Monday, August 11, 2008
I'm blue dabedi dabedai dabedi dabedai dabedi dabedai...
is been a Mad Season?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f1fZk4iqIcw
- end of nonsence post -
10:23 AM
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Sunday, August 10, 2008
Self reflection i did. the flaws and weaknesses were aplenty... wanted to give my best but sometimes it just turns out otherwise...
Forgive me ya Allah...i'm afraid of wat awaits me...i'm afraid of incurring Your wrath...very afraid..
Forgive me...Forgive us...let this heart be able to forgive wholeheartedly too... just for You..
9:19 PM
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Friday, August 08, 2008
Its beauty enhanced by the blanket of twinkling stars
You are in my thoughts...
My heart whispered something to You...
Felt the soft cool breeze against my face
I smile like a young girl in love...
Then my view gets a little blurry again
As the heart is moved by Your Greatness and Love...
How i love those moments...
Even more if this heart could be tied to You 24/7
So that a truly repentant slave i could be...
Strong enough in conquering calls of transgression...
Making good use of the time left in striving to seek Your Pleasure...
11:12 AM
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Wednesday, August 06, 2008
11:24 AM
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Tuesday, August 05, 2008
Sesungguhnya i have forgotten the existence of this particular song. its been few years now since i stop listening to them. depressing rock /angst-ridden songs was like a companion during late teens till about mid twenties. not sure why i was inclined towards those type of songs then when most of my schoolmates then were into boybands and love songs. those times, its like i got a high listening to such songs, especially when i was feeling down... ntah apa2 saja..hehehe ..can't believe it myself also at times...
only when the realisation came that the soul needed plenty of recovery (pemulihan)...i had to filter what goes into the ears. i remember an islamic quote (by Imam Hassan Al-Banna if i'm not wrong) that says the eyes and ears are 2 open doors, whatever that goes into it reaches the heart...
i guess once in a while tu boleh dengar lah tapi tak boleh selalu sangat macam dedulu...
1:01 PM
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Monday, August 04, 2008
now i can't even recall clearly those challenging days i had lately....except vague recollection of it ...good la if its been flushed out of my system ...hehe
11:04 AM
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Friday, August 01, 2008
He is taking care of me...i know He is. tho i'm quite unhappy with myself lately... but i understand i'm also going along with what has been written for me to do...i can't escape...
Sabar...redha...
11:33 PM
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