Wednesday, June 04, 2008
Its gonna be another long day today. i have mengaji lessons tonite. Hoping to complete the last few pages of Qiraati very soon, insya Allah. I can't wait to move to Quran. However, currently am having problem with controlling of pernafasan. i tend to pause often or nafas tak sampai when reading long ayats or those with longer harakats, then i end up pausing inappropriately. I try not to let myself be demoralised by it though. Although at times when i start to read in front of ustazah, i felt conscious abt it then end up short ayat pun nafas terbantut. hehe. walhal kat rumah baca ok. Ustazah would remind me to relax, jgn kelam kabut when she sense i'm getting a bit kancheong. lol.
Its amazing how we can read long sentences of a book so smoothly, but when its comes to kalam (did i spell it rite?) Allah, its not as easy as that... ustazah reminded to make doa, for Allah to give us a heart that loves the Quran. I may not be able to read it well yet, but i believe in the miracles of the Quran (Allah's words). I recalled when i had high fever from chicken pox few months ago which didn't subside with panadols. And i started to feel "floaty" not really myself and thoughts of death started playing on my mind. I lie in bed feeling terrible and plug in the digital quran to my ears and try to shut off my mind from other thoughts. i randomly pick a surah to listen, i could not remember which surah is it now but i remember the surah mentioned something like rugi lah org2 yg solat tapi lalai dalam solatnya.... tears just rolled coz i felt it hit me right in the face. and as the tears rolled, i felt my fever slowly subsiding and i dozed off soon after.... and by next morning, i only had very slight fever which eventually become no more fever. no more panadols needed after that. Subhanallah.
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