Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Yesterday was a 'challenging' day for me. I had sms isteri ustaz last nite for some advice. I wasn't feeling myself. shall not go into the details but i never felt this way the past mth thus i didn't know how to overcome it totally. sungguh ku tak mengerti sekali. I guess now i roughly know how hubby could have felt then, coz i was feeling the exact same thing :( But i didn't wanna tell him abt it coz i dun want him to be reminded of the past nor upset him. Tapi utk dipendekkan cerita, alhamdulilah i'm feeling better now after doing what i had to do and i'm going to practice zikir yg dah diberi and avoid being alone for too long, fikir balik, tis started when i was home alone for a few hours last friday but it was on n off then and quite mild. Setiap cubaan datang dariNya and only He can guide us out of it. Gosh i just feel like crying now. I just hope i won't ever feel that way again, betulnya cubaan smlm :(
Today masih demam. but couldn't take mc since need to cover duty pagi tadi and also coz i just went on leave semalam ptg so macam tak sedap pulak nak amik mc today. Hopefully i'll feel better as the hours goes by :p coz tonite we'll be going to hubby's fren's bbq at Loyang to celebrate his recent ROM then off to JB :) Before i end this entry, wanna know something in common that both tis furball and me have? we both love strawberry milk!!!
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