...A traveller on a journey...

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Today i almost slipped again on the way to work..its with this same pair of shoes that i fell flat on my hands and knees last tuesday. and even tho its been a week, the blue black mark on my knees is still visible tau *sob*. maybe its time for this shoe to go into the tong sampah? macam sayang pon ada nak buang coz the shoe is still in good condition except for the soles n the irritating loud tick tock sound it makes when i walk (see pic below).

And here's more pix of the 2 furballs who never fails to amuse us with their keletah n mischief :p

The last pic is something both of them enjoy doing to each other daily (licking each other affectionately)...awww...

4:28 PM

Monday, June 26, 2006

Ever since i recovered from being sick recently, i realised my favourite bubble tea drink doesn't taste the same anymore. Its just not as nice anymore :-/ pelik tapi benar. for years i've been enjoying tis drink and suddenly now its not that nice anymore, how wow? but i still been drinking it anyway :p but might consider changing to a different flavour if it continues to taste funny.

Went for the mmvd gathering on saturday, 1st time stepping into Bed's cosy abode, and 1st time meeting the vogue umi elly too n d cutie elly too :) it was a "sinful" food galore indeed, but the tummy just wasn't behaving good that day, was feeling bloated even before i start feasting on the food. chett! but nevertheless i did try to stuff myself with some of the yummylicious foodies. pix of d gathering can be found on her blog. hubby fetch me after that, we're supposed to go jb coz initially he wanted to top up petrol. but when he arrived, he said he wasn't feeling good again and suggested lets go have a drink at the coffeeshop nearby first. told him actually i was kinda down myself too so it perked me up when he suggested that. while at the coffeeshop, talked abt a couple of things and we felt much better after that :) guess we just have to take it easy till this phase pass, and just berserah aje.

After such a long time, suddenly i'm getting asked the "any good news yet?" question again. Last week someone asked me that at work ..and today once again...hmmm...

4:12 PM

Thursday, June 22, 2006

The MMVDs have been tagged by Masbokz...so here it goes...hehehehe

First Met...
Clementi MRT station. It was unexpected last minit thingie. Blind date lagik (altho both of us have seen each other's photos before). It was the june school holidays, but my skool had sent our batch for 1-mth attachment and i was posted to NUS. Still remember it was a hot saturday afternoon..and i was totally unprepared for it. muka berminyak abis. and i was wearing this purple colour kebaya. he turned up in faded jeans n t-shirt ocean pacific tak silap. still remember as we walked towards the mrt escalator, he commented that i'm tall. he just accompanied me in the train till it reached tampines and then took the bus with me before waving each other good bye after i alighted to go home, we didn't talk that much during that 1st meeting coz both of us were overcomed by shyness, cuma banyak senyum simpul je..kakakah..gatainyer bebudak ni!

Official Dating Session...
err...no official dating session, he fetched me at clementi and we makan at the coffeeshop around there before taking the train together from clementi to tampines again..

Favourite phrase used...
hmm..tis one makes my hair stand..kakakah..he would go "ju sayang ijat tak?" and i will reply "saayaanggg" shyly...i asked him earlier if there's any phrase he remembers abt me those days, tergelak dibuatnya when he said its during phone conversations, he likes to ask me sometimes "ju tak boring ke bebual ngan ijat ni?"...and i will reply "nanti kalau ju boring ju bilang ijat k"..kakakah..of course he knows i meant that as a joke lah..abih dia tanya soalan cam tu, so i give silly reply also lor...

3:19 PM

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

I'm back!!..after being away from work since Thursday. Was on sick leave. Really missed emailing, surfing net, blog hopping while i was away :p Here's a recap of the past few days...

Wed evening. Went to mom's place to wait for hubby to finish work. Masa dalam train tu rasa macam dah ok, except for runny nose. But sekali demam balik pulak. So we only went to hubby's kolig's chalet that nite. The JB thingie was cancelled. While at mom's place, mommy and me sat outside chit chatting near the tangga while waiting for hubby to arrive, and i manage to snap this pic of the moon with my hp...it looks a bit small from the pic but actually the moon was mengambang and looking very beautiful that nite... i just love the peace and serenity at nite around my parent's place.

At the chalet, we makan-ed and took pics with the gorgeous couple. His teamates were really nice and friendly. After we left the chalet, hubby brought me to the 24hr clinic. Temp taken there was 38 degrees, and i had all the usual flu symptoms. given medicines and 1 day MC for thursday. went back home, wash up, kena paksa makan SEMUA ubat2 tuh (under strict supervision to make sure i swallowed everything and dun try to escape taking the dreaded yucky tasting cough syrup :p) , and try to get some zzz. but i still didn't feel ok..demam macam tak turun2 pulak :-/ thus i couldn't sleep well that nite.

When fever still didn't subside by Thursday evening despite popping panadols, having ice pack put on my head and taking cooling drinks, i decided to heed mom's & hubby's advice to see the doctor again. Mommy was already scaring me by saying its not good kalau demam terus macam tu, mesti ada infection or something yg tak kena somewhere... Hubby also said he could fry an egg on me. lol. Since he was on niteshift that day, i was suppose to overnite at mom's place, so i decided to drop by at A & E at CGH on the way there. Temp taken there was 39 degrees. Told to sit at the fever area while waiting for my number to be called. Sempat pulak snap gambar sendiri while waiting to see doc. Check out da senget mask..hehehe.

Anyway, the doc decided to do a blood and urine test on me. said it could be a viral/dengue fever. Both urine and blood test results didn't turn out that good. Doc said my platelets was low, and it could early signs of dengue or other types of viral fever but its too early to confirm it. Was told to come back in 2 days time on saturday for a repeat blood test, if the results showed no improvements then i'll be warded. alamak ni yg tak best. Was given another day MC for friday, more medicines, and told to come back asap if i had any nose bleedings etc. Alhamdulilah by friday, i was feeling much better, except i was still a bit tired and still having runny nose/cough .Was confident that saturday's blood results would show improvement. So i was in good spirits when hubby and me left for CGH on saturday for the repeat blood test. Tapi alangkah sedihnya when doc said the blood results was actually worse than thursday's. Doc said the platelets have gone down further and thats not good coz it most likely is dengue (altho i had no rashes) :-/ Doc asked if i felt tired, vomitted or nauseous, yup i felt tired and nauseous a lot but no vomitting and otherwise ok. I then asked doc if he could give me some ubat to increase my platelets, tapi hampa doc cakap no medicines for that, and no cure for dengue either, they can only treat the symptoms as and when it appears. since i had a bit of diarrhoea past few days, doc kasi ubat diarrhoea (which, btw, i never took at all..lol), and said he will not ward me first since i look quite alrite at that time. but he said i will have to come back again in 2 days time for the 3rd and final blood test that will determine whether i'll be warded or otherwise. Meantime i was told not to tire myself out for those 2 days, not to cut myself and be careful to avoid falls and to come back immediately if i have giddiness, rashes etc. Doc said he would be very happy for me if he see even a slight improvement in the results on monday even if its still below the normal level coz that means my body is showing signs of recovery and i will be fine. Was given yet another day MC for monday.

By the time we left hospital, i was in low mood already. But tried not to think too much of it. Hubby then called up his workplace to take leave off work for sunday as well, which i dunno made me feel better or worse coz i felt like i was troubling him (even tho he never said that). he felt it wasn't safe for me to be home alone on sunday after what the doctor had said. Mommy lagi bagus, she was like "alamak kesiannya monday ijat punya birthday dia kena anta kau pi hospital pulak". But of course i know mommy was concerned too coz she kept asking how i was feeling now and then.

Then Monday came. Yup it was hubby's 30th birthday that day! Just spend the day lazing at home while waiting to go for my medical appt since the husband was not in the mood to go out jalan2, maybe due to the rainy weather. Alhamdulilah, this time the blood test results not only improved by a little..but A LOT!! back to normal level already :) Yayyyy!!

And back to work today! How did i celebrate my return to work?? By falling down flat on my hands and knees on the way to work this morning. It was raining and the ground was wet, was doing my kartun walk aka mini-jog..ntah camne tersliding and jatuh kelepup. Nasib baik not tat many ppl at the spot that i fell..kakakah! Except for a bruised knee, i'm well and fine..and continued the mad dash to work after getting up on my feet again :p

4:35 PM

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Eeeiii!! Geramnya dah type panjang2 sekali pc goes kaput!! so here i go again..grrr..

Yesterday was a 'challenging' day for me. I had sms isteri ustaz last nite for some advice. I wasn't feeling myself. shall not go into the details but i never felt this way the past mth thus i didn't know how to overcome it totally. sungguh ku tak mengerti sekali. I guess now i roughly know how hubby could have felt then, coz i was feeling the exact same thing :( But i didn't wanna tell him abt it coz i dun want him to be reminded of the past nor upset him. Tapi utk dipendekkan cerita, alhamdulilah i'm feeling better now after doing what i had to do and i'm going to practice zikir yg dah diberi and avoid being alone for too long, fikir balik, tis started when i was home alone for a few hours last friday but it was on n off then and quite mild. Setiap cubaan datang dariNya and only He can guide us out of it. Gosh i just feel like crying now. I just hope i won't ever feel that way again, betulnya cubaan smlm :(

Today masih demam. but couldn't take mc since need to cover duty pagi tadi and also coz i just went on leave semalam ptg so macam tak sedap pulak nak amik mc today. Hopefully i'll feel better as the hours goes by :p coz tonite we'll be going to hubby's fren's bbq at Loyang to celebrate his recent ROM then off to JB :) Before i end this entry, wanna know something in common that both tis furball and me have? we both love strawberry milk!!!

2:49 PM

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Arrggghhh...i woke up today with a sore throat and cough again. makes me feel cranky :-/. Hubby was also coughing badly this morning. Both of us seems to be taking turns getting the sore throat/cough or feeling flu-ish. Double argggh. And last nite there was some "disturbance" too. Triple argghh.

Its quite distracting seh bila kang kung kang kung (batok) pat ofis. thus i'm taking half day off this noon to avoid being a "nuisance" in the office. *excuses, excuses*. Dah apply halfday sekali for hubby's birthday this monday and mommy's colonoscopy in july.

Ok i'm gonna make myself a cup of coffee now..feeling a bit feverish already.

10:05 AM

Monday, June 12, 2006

Had a long weekend coz i was on urgent aka last menet leave on friday. felt quite groggy and ter-penat pulak that morning. so i thot amik half day shld be good enuff, afternoon bleh masok ofis. but in the end i extended my leave to 1 day, malas pulak nak masok opis lepas golek2 dirumah, especially with the rainy weather n all. tsk tsk tsk.

i then went downstairs to get some groceries to prepare for dinner. semangat seh, siap buat air kopi dalam teko lagi after that :p then "disaster" struck, while preparing to cook sambal, i realised gula di rumah dah abis. aiseh man. nak turun bawah lagi, macam ter-penat pulak since i've already changed to my comfy home wear. on top of that, last menet hubby said he'd be back early from his in-service coz he's having fever and thus bleh cabut from his run. so i wanted to get everything done before he reaches home. kalau nak turun bawah lagi, sure tak sempat kan? tapi kalau masak sambal without gula ntah camne rasanya, tak pernah terai pulak. so i started looking ard in my cabinet dapur to see if i can find anything that can "rescue" the situation when suddenly something caught my eye. a small box of Equal tablets which was a free pack we got some mths back. tu pon gula jugak kan? ;) nak dipendekkan criter, i popped those Equal tablets into my sambal instead..mmg tak pernah dibuat org, tapi ni dah darurat :p soon after hubby came back and while serving food, i told him nari kalau sambalnya rasa lain macam jgn marah ya and i told him my little story..lol. hubby looks amused and try to hold his laughter and said "yang only u will do tis kind of funny things tau" tapi syukur he ate penuh selera n went for 2nd helping. Alhamdulilah, thats someting abt him that i'm grateful for, tak cerewet when it comes to food. but the whole weekend, asyik kena sakat je abt my "special" sambal ni. :p

Overall (except for the occasional "disturbance" which we may have to endure for a few more mths) the weekend was a simple and blissful one. Being able to spend quality time with each other just makes me really happy. i sooo missed all that the past few mths. (eh tapi tak boleh happy sangat also lah, someone told me must be sederhana in our emotions - marah jgn terlalu marah, sayang jgn terlampau sayang, benci jgn terlalu benci). Syukur Alhamdulilah. I'm trying to be moderate as much as i can now.

Oh ya i bought 2 new tudungs yesterday. i did notice it was longer than usual and i thot thats good lah coz i prefer the slightly long ones. but i didnt know it was really that LONG, especially the black one, i was quite terperanjat by the length..hehehe..when i try it on, the back part reached below my butt. so i didn't wore that one to work altho i like the material. i wore the pink one instead today which is also much longer in length than the regular tudungs but a bit shorter than the black one. just love the pink-ness of tis tudung coz its just so..err..pink?

Think thats all for my blabbering today. terima kasih pada yg sudi membacanya hingga ke akhir without falling asleep. The End.

1:57 PM

Thursday, June 08, 2006

Phew! The visit is over already. And my 1st assignment at work as the unqualified mamarazzi went quite smoothly. Altho there is still room for improvement :p My hyper active imagination started acting up while we wait for our tetamu terhormat at the foyer, lambat pulak org tu sampai, makin tension dibuatnya, tangan pon dah start lenguh pegang camera..kata org pernantian itu satu penyeksaan..kakakah....was thinking to myself, wat if suddenly the camera died on me. wat if i trip over my skirt while going up the flight of stairs and the camera fell off my hands. what if the pics turn out blur or dark. tapi alhamdulilah sumernyer berjalan dgn lancar. Lawa betul Cik Is kita hari ni, betulnyer dress up kamu for today's visit. kekekeke. Unlike me, jaket pon takde terpaksa borrow urs..kakakah.

5:01 PM

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Yayyy! i've been tagged by rosie...so here it goes...

3 SCHOOLS I WENT...
Ping Yi Primary School
Loyang Secondary School
ITE Clementi

THINGS IN MY PURSE/BACKPACK...
A lot of garbage in my bag actually..kekeke..lets see (besides the usual necessities):
My glasses, which i rarely put on unless terpaksa
Spare tudung brooch, coz sometimes brooch pecah or just ter-fall off from my tudung, weird but true.
Books, to keep me occupied when i'm in bookworm mood.:p

3 THINGS I DO WHEN I'M REALLY STRESS...
Depending on the situation and cause of stress,..i will
i) Freak out/panic
ii) Waste money
iii) have a walk alone or talk abt it to someone

3 PLACES I GO ON DAILY BASIS...
Bilik Air
Bed
Lift

3 FAVOURITE FRUITS...
Strawberry
Honeydew
Semangka

NAMES I GO BY...
Ju
Jum
Jujuk

3 OF MY FAVOURITE FOOD...
Kway teow goreng pedas with lots of mutton in it
Burgers
Home cooked food

3 THINGS I'M WEARING RIGHT NOW...
Clothes
Tudung
High heels

THE WHOS***
WHO IS IN THE HOUSE WITH ME?
Now in the office with colleagues around me

WHO AM I THINKING RIGHT NOW?
The "visitor" i'm supposed to photograph tomorrow..kakakakah.

WHO DID I LAST TALK TO ON THE PHONE?
Hubby..

WHO DID I SIT TO IN MY 5TH PERIOD IN THE CLASS?
Ntah eh..

*WHO WERE THE LAST PERSON I TOLD I LOVED?
Hubby..

WHO DO I WISH I WAS WITH RIGHT NOW?
Hubby and my 2 busyukkk furballs

WHO GETS ON MY NERVES MOST AT SCHOOL?
Rowdy students and teachers yg marah tak tentu pasal

***THE WHERES***
WHERE IS MY PHONE?
Office phone ke hp? anyway both are on the desk..kekeke

WHERE DO I SLEEP?
Apanyer soalan ni...on the bed ler

WHERE IS THE PLACE I TOOK A RIDE TO?
Work...

***THE WHATS***
WHAT IS THE LAST THING I ATE?
Kentucky Fried Chicken..hehehe

WHAT COLOUR SHIRT AM I WEARING?
Black dress with grey pants

WHAT IS THE CLOSEST ITEM NEAR ME IS BLUE?
A plastic folder

WHAT DO I LIKE BEST ABOUT SCHOOL?
the company i had esp in ITE

WHAT IS MY FAVOURITE COLOUR?
Pink...

WHAT DO I WEAR MORE OFTENS - JEANS OR SHORTS?
Jeans when i'm out, shorts at home...

WHAT IS THE LAST MOVIE I WATCHED?
hmm..dun watch that much tv..but watched Ice Age 2 at the cinema abt 3 mths back

THE WHENS***
WHEN DID I START SCHOOL?
1984 - primary 1..tak masok kindergarten.

WHEN DID I LAST GO TO THE MALL?
yesterday evening, to get some groceries and makanan kucing at lot 1's ntuc

WHEN DID I LAST BURNT SOMETHING?
some mths back when i accidentally burn a hole in my baju while ironing

3 OTHER PEOPLE TO DO THIS!
boleh skip tis part tak? :p

9:21 AM

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Pagi ni was awoken by a scary dream. Was relieved to see hubby sound asleep and just fine, i just istifar a few times and...i dun do this often enuff, but coz of The Dream, i mumbled "love u" to him. thot dia lagi tido, rupernya dia pon dah berjaga and replied "i love u too". then i just lay there for a few minutes as my mind went into flashback mode again..then i thot ahhh yg sudah tu sudah dong...utk melupakan semuanya secepat ini mmg enggak bisa, pokoknya jgn terlalu difikirin...

This Thursday, i've got quite a "challenging" task to do at work. Taking official pics using the SLR camera, something that i'm very very inexperienced with. the size of this slr camera also frightens me, berat pulak tu for tis lembik hands of mine..lol. No big deal kamu cakap?? Ok nehmind. the pics will need to be submitted to kementerian hal ehwal luar negara lagik!! and i've been freaking out since the news broke out that i need to be the "photographer" for that 'event'..kakakah. i did took a crash course on it last mth, tapi no practice so dah lupa lor. my mind just went blank bila kena "grill" with my very "nice checher" on how to operate the cam. tak semenggah seh those first few pics i took :( so demoralising :( Later going to practice somemore, and hope by tomorrow, i'll see some improvements. no choice, by hook or by crook MUST be able to take good and clear pics by then and just relax. Confidence oh confidence...Where Art Thou??

P.S. Losie, i'll reply to your tag after tis entry ;)

12:31 PM

Friday, June 02, 2006

The surprise email i got from kavitha this morning moved me. Thanks for understanding me , tolerating me (btw i tolerate u sometimes too, hokay..lol), scolding me :p, and yet still be there for me and saying that u are happy for me if i'm happy..awww. I can't predict how the future's gonna be like, just tawakal aje. Oh ya, I hope by the time u read my blog again, u would have felt better abt wat happened at work today :)

Anyway, seems like if i don't do something clumsy, macam tak sah gitu. my hp rang in the office, the earpiece was still attached to hp. i keep saying hello hello on the hp but i can't hear any voice. then i realised i said hello at the wrong place, i'm supposed to use the earpiece (since it was still attached to hp) instead of putting the hp to my ears. there hubby was hearing me say hello repeatedly and replying back but yet i couldn't hear him coz i was saying hello at the wrong place..lol. when i finally said hello at the rite place (using the earpiece), i hear agitated hubby saying hello (maybe for the umpteenth time..lol), but after i told him wat happened, he burst out laughing. haizz..selenge betul as usual.

4:53 PM

Thursday, June 01, 2006

My 2nd post for today. Bersemangat betul org tu update blog, mentang2 baru tukar skin :p Actually i'm feeling a little uneasy. Everything is going well (after months and months of dugaan, suffering, pain), that it feels a bit scary. Ya Allah ampunkan lah hambamu ini kerana berperasaan sebegini. Ku sedar ketenangan yg sebenar2nya hanya dariMu. Tak suka rasa macam ni :( Macam tak tahu bersyukur dgn pemberianNya pulak and wasting it on worrying unecessarily.

Relax, take it as it comes and enjoy the good things whilst it lasts *self advice to self :p*

on another note, saje nak test hubby's memory, asked him if he remembers what day is it today, sib baik dia cakap of course, its the date of our 1st phone call. that eventually lead us to where we are now. been a long road full of pahit manis, onak duri, happiness and sadness dan macam2 lagi. semoga kami diberi kesabaran melayan karenah dan ragam masing2 dan diberi kekuatan menghadapi liku2 rumahtangga. Most importantly is memohon keberkatan dan keredhaanNya in watever we do.

I was rather touched to know that mummy called hubby just to criterkan ragam kucing2 pat rumah and pour out her worries regarding her upcoming colonoscopy next mth. And the fact that dad ask me to bring home some dried foodstuff for the both of us early tis week. It just brings me to tears, wish i could give him a hug for being so sweet but apakan daya diri ini sudah besar panjang, segan nak peluk bapaku. Allah Maha Mendengar, express whatever thats in your heart to Him, tats what a kakak had told me. Thanks Kak and syukur pada Allah menemukan ku dgn teman2 dan sahabat yg tak jemu memberi kata2 perangsang utk mengingatiMu diwaktu ku tenggelam dgn kedukaan.

12:19 PM

An unexpected last minit visit from the FIL can be quite nerve-wrecking. Thats wat happened over the weekend. He had some issues to discuss with the husband before leaving for JB. But didn't expect the short notice, said he was coming Now since we are home. Quickly changed into something more presentable and decent, within less than 30mins of his phonecall, he was already at our doorstep with his bicycle in tow. after salam-ing and serving him a drink, both father and son had their discussion :p while i made myself busy preparing dinner. then suddenly FIL bersuara frm the living room, "ko masak apa tu jun, nak gak ayah rasa masakan ko tu" (fil is the only one who calls me jun instead of ju) i can already feel the knots forming in my stomach. oh no, not now when i'm only cooking kari sardin n telor and just frying some veges as sidedish. kenapalah he didn't come when i made something more "impressive" lah kononnya? lol. hubby then came to the kitchen and i told him.."alamak bang, tiba2 stress!! pressure." he finds it funny pulak seeing me getting kancheong. kalau arwah MIL ok lah dah biasa last time with her, tu pon if i bring food over to her place, mesti lah lauk yg presentable sikit. and usually those times FIL was not in spore so he didn't get to taste it. so tis was his 1st time and the lauk was not impressive at all i think. altho for hubby, he's more than happy coz its one of his favourite lauk. on top of that FIL is rather direct with his comments too, unlike arwah MIL who is more tactful and beralas sikit..hehe.

Finally when dinner is served, just as expected, when hubby asked how's the food, he said ok lah tapi tawar sikit (referring to the kari),..then he asked me "ko tak makan garam eh jun" adoi..cobaan. hubby came to my rescue and said "mana ada tawar, ayah ni darah tinggi lah, dah biasa makan masin2 bab tu rasa tawar". i then turn to hubby and ask him softly in all honesty to tell me if the lauk is really tawar so that i can add salt accordingly bila panaskan lauk nanti. but he said nope it taste just fine. still not convinced, i taste the lauk myself. my tastebuds must have been confused also from all the stress, coz one moment it feels like its a bit tawar, next moment i feel its ok. so there i was thinking FIL must have been forcing those food down his stomach and not really eating with appetite. When suddenly few minutes later, he asked if he could go for a 2nd helping and proceeded to help himself in the kitchen. kakakakah! hubby then give me the thumbs up and said "i know my dad kalau dia tambah lauk tu maknanya he lauk tu ok. dah takmo sedih2 eh"...phew.

9:14 AM