...A traveller on a journey...

Thursday, June 09, 2005

Received an sms from a good former colleague of mine this morning. She's now in the US coz her hubby is on a 2-yr work attachment there. occasionally we'll sms each other to ask how each other is doing etc. But this morning's sms from her made my heart jumped in excitement...the last part of her sms goes like tis "Btw, aku preg lagi labi!" Omg! If she was beside me, i would have hugged her there and then. Hai labu, productive sungguh ko eh. :p Memories of times with her came back flooding to my mind. We got married around the same time just 3 mths apart, took the same mak andam, got our new house also around the same time, shared our fears, hopes and dreams as we adjusted to marriagehood. We planned to get pregnant around the same time as well if possible, tapi dah rezeki dia, she got pregnant abt 10mths after getting married. I still remember that time it was during the SARS outbreak period, thus we had to take temperature every morning before we could get into our workstation. Her temperature was always high altho she wasn't running a fever so most of the time she couldn't get into the office, and had to sit down outside a while, drink some water and have her temperature re-taken again.

Then one fine morning, i saw her running to the toilet, she said she felt nauseous and had to throw up. My heart skipped a beat, i suspected she was pregnant, accompanied her that afternoon to get the pregnancy test kit at watsons. That nite she sms-ed me with the good news. I had mixed feelings. I felt so happy for her and yet i felt down at the same time. I know with her being pregnant, i'm going to get more of the "now N already pregnant, when's ur turn?" from colleagues. I felt unlucky. I hated myself for feeling that way, but thank God that feeling went off just as quickly as it came. Of course i did get those never-ending dreaded questions but i just make up some excuses, and try not to let those kepo aunties/uncles questions get me down. Each time, she told me she felt her baby kicked, i felt just as excited (mcm saya pulak yg pregnant..kakkakah!), and i looked in awe when she showed me her full pregnant belly then..lol. i remember telling her eh seramnyer coz it looked so rounded and stretched to the max gitu. Then came the sms late one nite that she's having labour pain and going to hospital soon. i felt anxious too. early next morning, got a call from her hubby that she has just given birth to a bouncing baby girl. shared the news with colleagues in the office. went to visit her and her so small fragile looking but cute baby girl. she related to us her labour experience which made my stomach churn. But even tho stomach churning, i still yearn to be able to go thru that beautiful experience one day...

Anyway when i told her i dunno when my turn will be, she had this to say "takpe lah labi ko masih muda, enjoy puas-puas, saper tahu once u got one, u can't stop givin birth!" lol. hai labu, hopefully masin lah mulut ko tu..hehehe..suddenly missed her and her nonsense.

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