...A traveller on a journey...

Saturday, June 25, 2005

Dah 1 week tak update blog. Bukan tak nak update but manyak hal peribadi which are not suitable to be written down here. Anyway alhamdulilah dgn izinNya, i'm still surviving and feelin a little better now. Although things can take a turn for the worse again anytime, but i'm just taking it one day at a time for now. My life has been quite a rollercoaster ride. When its good, its really good, when its bad, it can get really bad too. I worry abt the future, abt a lot of things in fact. but some of these things are beyond my control. But during the most trying moments, terasa amat sangat kebesaran Allah swt, like how so miserable i felt that particular nite and i felt instantly better after pouring my heart out to Him and miraculously things also got better that same nite. Despite all the sins i've been committing, sama ada disengajakan atau tidak, He still helped me instantly when I call out to Him. was a humbling feeling indeed. a feeling i couldn't forget that nite. i yearn for more of that feeling of peace from within. But being this human being with so many flaws in me, sometimes i still end up doing and saying all the wrong things bila dugaan datang..*sigh*

I'm praying for some miracles to happen, i do believe in miracles. but sometimes when i'm at my weakest point, my hope plunges to almost zero and tats when i need a little push from loved ones and dear frens to help me get back up on my feet again. Anyway I don't want to make it seem like as tho i'm suffering some kind of humongous problem or anything like that. I don't want it to seem exaggerated or get dramatic abt it :P But at the same time i also cannot be ignorant abt it. We'll have to think of some solutions to the problems. Preferably long term solutions. If tats not possible, then just berserah pada Nya and hope for the best.

On another note, this few days i'm unable to tag my blog frens, and its so frustrating. something wrong with shoutbox ah. must kena shout already..hehehe

Last but not least Chappee now has a new found "fren". remember the kitty i posted in the earlier entry. Brought it or rather her home last weekend. At first Chappee merajok and i was thinking oh no i just thot he'd feel better having a playmate and he merajok pulak with me. But as days goes by, i'm seeing much improvements now. Phew. They are starting to play with each other altho not too close yet. will try to post some pics of them next week.

Till then have a good weekend everyone :)

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