...A traveller on a journey...

Thursday, April 28, 2005

Was abruptly awoken at 2am last nite. Heard my cat Husky making "screaming" sounds. Altho the sounds were very brief, it was enuff to jolt me from my sleep. i know something must be wrong coz otherwise he won't make such sounds. Woke hubby up and told him something's wrong with husky. Switched on the lights, rushed to the living room and there we found husky lying on his side, on the floor beside the dinner table going into a fits, his whole body jerking violently and saliva oozing from his mouth and his fur all kembang. it was a sight i couldn't bear to see, so i stood some distance away helplessly, praying to God ringankan lah siksa binatang tak berdosa ni :( Hubby was stunned and shocked as well, it was his first time seeing something like that happening to husky.

But it was my 2nd time seeing this traumatising incident happened to husky. The first incident happened abt 3mths back, i was home alone then when suddenly heard a loud sound out coming from the living room and when i rushed out, saw husky jerking away violently and it was worse then, coz blood was oozing from his mouth. I couldn't make sense out of wat was happening then coz in the 3yrs that we had husky, he was healthy, active and playful and showed no signs of any illness. When i brought him to the animal clinic last year for grooming, the vet too said he was in good health. So seeing something like that suddenly happening before my eyes, i was convinced he was going to die and will not survived something so horrible like that. I called an old pal who also has a pet cat of her own and cried that my cat was going to die. I was really panic-stricken then and didn't know wat to do. But after a few seconds (which seemed like an eternity), the jerking stopped. Husky was still lying on his side looking confused and breathing heavily. I was relieved that he was still breathing and was getting ready to rush him to the emergency animal hospital, but a few seconds later, he actually got up and started walking! I just can't believe it. Wiped the blood stains on the floor and on his mouth and in no time he was already eating hungrily from his bowl. its like the fits made him hungry after that. and abt 20mins later, he was back to his usual self. walking around the house, responding by meowing in his mentel voice when i called out his name. He showed no signs at all of wat he had just went thru, so in the end i didn't take him to the vet but continue to monitor him the next few days. but he was perfectly ok, his usual "talkative" self when he's being talked to, eats normally, was his mischievious and playful self. So i didn't want to think too much abt that incident as long as he's healthy and well again.

Till last nite, it happened again. just like the first time, after a few seconds, the jerking stopped and he was breathing heavily with saliva drooling from his mouth. and after a few minutes, he got up and walked. Altho still looking a bit disorientated, but he made his way to the kitchen and ate the dry food from his bowl. And by this morning, he was back to his playful and manja self. But i lost my sleep coz i was too traumatised to go back to sleep...just lie in bed terkebil2 and finally doze off only when it was nearly 5am. nasib baik hubby anta gi keje today so at least i could wake up a bit later.

Called up the animal hospital to find out more but they need me to make appt and bring my cat down for a thorough assessment first. surfed the net and found some helpful articles. But i guess husky still needs a thorough checkup from an experienced vet. here's part of the article i found on the net regarding seizures on cats:

" Seizures are uncommon in pet cats but because they’re usually unexpected and often violent in appearance, they’re one of the most frightening and upsetting events an owner can witness.

What does a fitting cat look like?
The main type of seizure or fit affecting the cat is the equivalent of “grand mal” in people. The cat collapses and seems to lose consciousness. It lies on its side and develops a rapid paddling of the limbs. The body can appear stiff and the neck is arched backwards. The cat can salivate excessively and there may be loss of bladder and bowel control. Some seizures result in behavioural changes such as aggression and biting. It always feels like an eternity but a typical seizure lasts for only 10 or 20 seconds. “Petit mal” is manifested by a brief loss of consciousness and muscle tone. This is believed to be rare in animals but it may be more accurate to say it’s rarely recognised. Normal adult cats sleep for around 18 hours of the day so a few seconds slightly out of touch with the world would easily pass by unnoticed.

If my cat has a fit is there anything I can do to help?
Don’t try to comfort or touch a fitting cat- you’re likely to end up being badly bitten or scratched.
Remove surrounding sharp objects which may harm the cat. If this isn’t possible, use a cushion or duvet to cover them.
Dim lights and switch off tv’s and radios.
Once your cat has come round from the seizure, allow free access to food and water.
Allow your cat to rest after the seizure.
Contact your vet at the earliest opportunity and arrange for your cat to be examined.
A seizure should last no more than a few minutes. If the seizure persists for an excessive length of time, contact your vet immediately."

Wow i think that was my longest entry so far...enuff abt husky. Mom will be admitted to KKH this afternoon for the necessary blood tests etc. Her surgery will be done tomorrow. Praying that all goes well and smoothly. Will be on leave tomorrow till friday morning. See how it goes, might be extending the leave on friday to full day's leave.

Alamak perot dah lapau ni...tengok biskut marie ni on my desk...so appetising..especially kalau cecah ngan air teh...Yummyyyy!!

1:31 AM

Monday, April 25, 2005

Couldn't update my blog the past few days as i had loads of work to clear :( and as if to add to the Monday blues, I left my handphone at home today!!!!! feel so lost without it. on top of that i'll be at my mom's place tonite so that means i'll only get to "re-unite" with my beloved hp only tomorrow evening after work...whoahhh, i'm suffering from withdrawal symptoms already..*heeeelpp, heleppp*

To top it off, i wore a very white kaler blouse to work today *kapok from my sis* hehehe..but i end up spilling milo on it, altho i've rinse the spot with water, but there's still a light brown stain there.... So i'll be taking the train back with this stain smack in the middle of my blouse. What a day. hehehe.

5:45 PM

Thursday, April 21, 2005

An old time pal of mine visited by blog today, and being the caring fren that she's always been, she then dropped me a mail to ask if i'm ok. But what literally made me laugh out aloud in front of my computer was when she ask me this - why do some of my blogfrens call me kokodotz, coz she thought it sounded like a FROG!...lol!!! Then she continued by saying "sorry ah just joking hehe". Luckily i'm at work now otherwise i think i would have fallen off my chair from laughing...hehehe *ok i'm exaggerating..hehe*

To my dear old pal - Kavitha, thanks for making my day and tolerating with me all these years. Your friendship is something dear to me..pls don't puke a..hehehe. p.s. i still can't see the connection between a frog and a kokodotz. lol. But i shall leave it as that coz i know you have a "creative" mind sometimes...frog pon frog lah..hehehe.

To Mei Kuei, thanks for layaning me and giving me support when i needed it :) I still cannot forget ur "milo panas" story...ooops..kekekeke. To my online pals, reading ur blogs and tags puts a smile on my face :) I still feel quite jakun abt this blog thingie lor so pls pardon me if i sound..err..jakun..

I think i'm having a bad hair day today, rambut ni macam leper je. Toncet pon setotet je hari ni, not as kembang as some other days :-/

4:06 AM

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

One of my favourite songs from one of my favourite bands...i know its a depressing song, but i still like it anyway, used to sing this song to myself during some rough periods of my life.

Bent - Matchbox Twenty

If I fall along the way
Pick me up and dust me off
And if I get too tired to make it
Be my breath so I can walk
If I need some other love
Give me more than I can stand
And when my smile gets old and faded
Wait around I'll smile again
Shouldn't be so complicated

Just hold me and then
Just hold me again
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent

If I couldn't sleep could you sleep
Could you paint me better off
Could you sympathize with my needs
I know you think I need a lot
I started out clean but I'm jaded
Just phoning it in
Just breaking the skin
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent

Start bending me
It's never enoughI feel all your pieces
Start bending me
Keep bending me until I'm completely broken in
Shouldn't be so complicated

Just touch me and then
Just touch me again
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together

You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent.....

10:31 AM

Monday, April 18, 2005

Long day in the office again today.. so tired leh. As it is when i woke up this morning, i already felt lethargic and couldn't really understand why. some days i just woke up feeling tired, and yet other days i woke up refreshed despite staying up late the nite before. funny ah. i look at myself today, macam apa seh, muka penat abis. nak senyum pon bibir ni macam tak bleh stretch gitu..hehehe..

Watched the movie Guess Who with hubby last nite. The show is hilarious, Theresa's father reminds me a bit of my own dad..hehehe.. Hubby could very well relate to being in Theresa's boyfriend's shoes..hehehe..eh braper banyak punya "hehehe" dahhh...*heheheh*

Semalam saya masak simple lah..sambal tumis telor. Goreng kentang indian style ngan biji sawi tu sumer. I put 6 eggs in the sambal tumis. I can't believe my hubby sebat 5 biji telor all by himself. poor me only had 1 egg to myself. but its ok, 1 egg is better than no egg at all.

noticed everytime if i update my blog at the end of the day bila dah penat macam ni, banyak merepek raban seh..hehehe..everything seems so funny gitu. syok sendiri lah tu.

time for me to call it a day. going to have yet another long day at work tomorrow. hope i can update something more "sensible" in my blog tomorrow..hehehe.

6:59 PM

Friday, April 15, 2005

What am i still doing in the office at this hour?? on a Friday somemore... well its been a really busy day for me at work today...paler pon dah pening ni. Feel so frustrated couldn't chat on msn today...hehe..bleh gitu? mesti lah kan...kita takde kompiter at home, bila lagik nak chat kan..hahaha.. dah lah enuff of my merepekness, nak type panjang2 jari dah penat plak..mata pon dah pedih ni..time for me to "balik kampung" now..

Have a good weekend :)

7:01 PM

Thursday, April 14, 2005

Another not-so-good day today...mood is low, how i wish i can be indulging in a major shopping spree now to destress..hehe. But since i'm stuck in the office, i decided to make use of the net and this article here caught my attention. Just look at point "h." i almost grin from ear to ear when i read that and was wondering howcome no mention of the husband? hmm..could this article have been created by a woman? hehehe..

The ABCS of Life

a. Life is a struggle, face it.
b. Life is a brief intermission, between birth and death, enjoy it.
c. Life is a lesson, learn it.
d. Life is not a joke, take it seriously.
e. Life is work, work is life.
f. Life is a dream, to be realized.
g. Life is to be lived, enjoy it.
h. Life, without a wife, is no life.
i. Life is not a bed of roses.
j. Life is an ocean, fathom it.
k. Life is an opportunity, don't miss it.
l. Life without love is desolate.
m. Life is a goldmine, exploit it.
n. Life is what you make it.
o. Life lies in optimism. Be a positive thinker.
p. Life is like a game of snakes and ladders; one faces many pitfalls before one reaches the top.
q. Life will be a pleasure, if you love your work.
r. Life without goals, is groping in darkness.
s. Life without trust is a life in turmoil.
t. Life is a journey; make it as pleasant as possible.
u. Life doesn't mean bread alone.
v. Life is meaningful, only if there is a mission.
w. Life is enriched by good friendship.
x. Life doesn't mean years alone: "IT IS THE LIFE IN THOSE YEARS"
y. Life is useful, if you contribute something, that will outlive it.
z. Life lies in diversity, not in monotony.

4:39 PM

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Every month...on this date, i feel a little perked up...why? coz its Pay Day!!! the only day that i can feel a little "kaya" before i go "kayap" again after that..hahaha.. but anyway settling bills, running errands, shopping for groceries, getting toiletries and such, is something i quite enjoy doing. makes me feel so "wifey" gitu..apa saja eh? :p especially the grocery shopping part, pushing the trolley ard happily at NTUC or some other supermarkets or going to the wet market to buy fish and stuff, is quite a de-stressing activity for me. tapi kan bila dah balik rumah nak kuarkan balik those stuff from the different plastic bags and susun balik sumer barang2 tu pat cabinet dapur and fridge, errr.. that part not so feveret..hehehe

We had our post-health screening talk earlier today...and after hearing the talk, i feel more worried abt hubby and i think i should pester him to go for a thorough health checkup. Yup we may have financial constraints and going to such health checkups may not be cheap...but health is wealth. its not like as tho we'll go bankrupt just coz of one miserable health checkup or visit to the doc...

Need to get a gift for my dear youngest sis today which i had promised her last week...i can already imagine her going "thank you kakak" when she sees me tomorrow... some things abt her quite adorable like how she'll pronounce mamypoko pampers as mamikoko...kuku is pookoo to her...facial wash is "pen wash"..ntah how did she come up with that last one...but one thing abt kids like her, - they have a heart of gold :)

ok enuff of "time-out" already, time to get back to work...boooohooooo...

4:00 PM

Monday, April 11, 2005

Been feelin bogged down this few days...thus just thot of sharing this song to motivate myself and others who might be having a bad day...

R.E.M - Everybody Hurts Lyrics

When your day is long
And the night
The night is yours alone
When you're sure
You've hadEnough of this life
Well hang on
Don't let yourself go'
Cause everybody cries
And everybody hurts
Sometimes

Sometimes everything is wrong
Now it's time to sing along
(When your day
Is night alone)
Hold on, hold on
(If you feel like letting go)
Hold on
If you think you've had
Too much of this life
Well hang on

'Cause everybody hurts
Take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts
Don't throw your hand
Oh, no
Don't throw your hand
When you feel
Like you're alone
No, no, no
You're not alone
If you're on your own
In this life
The days and
Nights are long
When you think
You've had too much
Of this life
To hang on
Well, everybody hurts
Sometimes
Everybody cries
And everybody hurts
Sometimes
And everybody hurts
Sometimes
So, hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on
(Everybody hurts
You are not alone)(Fades)

4:50 PM

Friday, April 08, 2005

Was a bit busy with work today. tadi pagi rasa macam nak ponteng keje pon ada..hehe..hubby is on mc today. but i couldn't afford to be away from work today. yesterday the doc said his blood pressure is a bit high again :-/ I dunno if i should hide the botol kicap at home again. Coz he loves kicap sooo much and tends to overdose on it, which is really bad for his bp. I'm paranoid abt these things coz both my FIL and arwah MIL has high bp. So far he seems much better today after taking his medicines last nite. But still kena pantang here and there when it comes to food and i've also been telling him not to get worked up unecessarily over small things especially those beyond our control coz thats also bad for his health and affects his bp.

This morning on the way to work, i keep playing the same song over and over again - lagu Wassini by Waheeda. Now the song keeps playing on my mind..hahaha. There's also this new song by Matchbox20, i dunno wat the title is, but it keeps playing quite often on the radio now, i quite like it.

Btw thanks to everyone who left a tag on my taggie, it really makes my day reading those tags :) Weekend is here, i think i might be giving my busyukk kitty a bath this weekend. Oh ya let me share a little something abt my adorable and bacin kitty. His name given by hubby is Husky, i didn't know that husky is actually a name of a dog breed till much later, hubby thinks he looks a bit like the husky breed thus that name. tapi tak tahu camne i end up calling him Chappee pulak now. hehe. He's already 3yrs old now. suka gigit orgnyer toe (ibu jari kaki) bila dia tgh mood manja and suka main air pat toilet. dia lah "baby" kita for now..hehe

Won't be able to update my blog for the next 2 days coz takde kompiter pat rumah. Shall update when i'm back to work on monday..hehe...Have a good weekend peeps :) Gotta get back to work now. bubbye :)

11:13 AM

Thursday, April 07, 2005

Woke up this morning with a smile on my face, had a pleasant dream or rather romantic dream abt hubby...hahaha..so long never dream abt him in my sleep. i think its because the past 2 days i didn't get to see him, was at mom's place since hubby doing niteshift, mungkin rindu gaknyer sampai termimpi. Tapi bila dah berjumpa hari2, lain plak jadinyer...testing my patience to the max at times man. hai hubby, hubby...sometimes i just don't understand u at all, but anyways i love u dearly....looking foward to seeing him this evening after 2 days tak jumpa..

oh ya this morning i took a cab from mom's place in tampines to tampines mrt stn. usually it cost me ard $4-$5 depending on how the traffic is and how slow or fast apek teksi tu bawak. the uncle today made a wrong turn, so for that he gave me discount, the fare was $4.40 but he said just pay $4 enuff already. i didn't have small note with me at the time, gave him $50, he check his pocket, n said he also not enuff change to return me back the balance and guess what - he told me with a smile, its ok no need to pay. aiyoh i feel so bad, i said uncle cannot like that lah, so i pon korek2 my syiling dalam wallet ada $2.20, he said can just give him that...hai baik hati betul this uncle :)

the results for the staff health screening was out early this week. and there will be a post-health talk next week. feel quite relieved to see everything's ok...satu je tak ok. Urine test results not ok. ni mesti kena urinary tract infection (uti) again. lost count already how many times kena this uti already. kejap ok, pastu datang balik. but also partly my fault bila doc kasi antibiotics, i didn't complete the course. tak tahu apsal susah sangat nak abiskan ubat tu.

Last but not least, to Sis Ros who is down with stomach flu and food poisoning, rajin2 makan ubat and get well soon ya :) don't let wat limau said spoil ur day okie?

10:40 AM

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

Yeahhhh!! my blog looks pretty now - all thanks to Kiccykoooo!!! Thanks so much awak for the time and trouble u took to "renovate" my blog. now i'm just going to sit here for a while and admire my blog sambil menghirup milo panas ni...

9:45 AM

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

feeling rather bored at work now. this feeling creeps up on me rather often these days, but i just tell myself hang on first. cannot buat keputusan terburu2 especially when i have commitments and responsibilities now. think positive ju. yup i sure need a good dose of positive thinking. sometimes i tend to live in the past too much and just find it hard to adapt to changes. its not good huh? dunno wat i merepek abt now also...must be one of those days when i'm feelin emosional, bukan emoticon tau *merepek lagi*. hehee..

on a different note, mom's surgery at SGH this fri had to be postponed due to the bacteria outbreak there. kesian mother. she's already feelin anxious to get the surgery over and done with and now this happened. but on the brighter side, she's asked for transfer for the surgery to be done at kkh instead, which i guess its better coz they are more experienced with such cases.

i better get back to work now..file bersepah pat desk ni...will update more soon!!

7:06 AM

Monday, April 04, 2005

Its a cold monday today...brrr...woke up quite early today coz hubby keje pagi.hmm..apa lagi nak tulis eh? maybe share wat happened over the weekend.

Sat afternoon - gi jalan2 at bukit gombak with hubby,end up ter-beli 2 baby goldfish and one glass bowl to put the fishes in. balik rumah took a nap, hubby needed some sleep coz baru balik keje malam. petang kita bangun, dah plan nak turun kedai bawah beli barang dapur cikit...keluar pat corridor baru nak pakai selipar, ternampak our previous house owner pat rumah jiran kita...its my neigbour's daughter's bday. kita pun sibuk2 lah pat sana jap (since meka dah jemput masuk). after that kita plak invite our previous owners datang rumah kita..haha..bleh gitu..so they popped by a while, tanya khabar etc and told us to keep in touch. lepas dorang balik, kita pun turun lot 1 cari prezen utk my neigbour's daughter. after that ketuk pintu rumah my neigbour and pass the prezen, kita pon masuk rumah kita and prepare nak bobokz..

Sunday - bangun awal, did marketing coz hubby's fren and his wife coming over for lunch. Mcm tak tahu nak masak pe, sampai skg macam takde konfiden kalau kena masak utk org tapi kena biasakan ah..kekeke...in the end masak nasi minyak and kari ayam. dessert - fruit cocktail. jadi lah tu.hehe.. lepas kita sumer makan2, we chatted a while, played games...then kita plak drop by their place. reached home ard 9plus. our tenants also came to clear their room and return us our keys. the house seems more quiet now that they have left. hopefully can get new tenants soon.

after they left, hubby went to his room..ntah apa dia buat, when i took a peek nampak macam dia tgh kemas barang2 pat bilik tu, we had a disagreement abt something before that so me was feelin rather geram and angry...so kita pun bawak diri lah, gosok baju pat bilik..tgh kemas2 tu hubby ternampak barang2 arwah mak. kejap lagi saw him sitting at the corridor smoking, when i approach him, nampak dia pegang this small pouch which belongs to his arwah mak. dengan serta merta, hilang perasaaan geram dan marah tu tadi, terus bertukar jadi kesian and sedih gitu. ask him if he's ok. tapi suara dia macam tersekat2 gitu...he said he missed mak. i tried hard to control my tears but alas terkuar jugak airmata ni..just hugged him tight. sedangkan me anak menantu pon rasa kehilangan mak, apatah lagi hubby anak kandungnyer. we talked and talked abt a lot of things, mintak maaf to each other..finally tertido..

eh panjang jugak my post eh, tadi macam takde citer, dah start jadi panjang lebar pulak...

10:30 AM